The mirror can be a scary thing


The mirror can be a scary thing

Jan. 8, 2018 | by Anyse Lebeau

I’m not gonna lie I’ve always taken good care of myself; hair done, makeup on, cute shoes, tight jeans… I worked out from time to time but not routinely by any means.

My body was always something I admired, most definitely never hated.

I ate as I pleased but made conscious decisions in regards to my food. I made friends easily, had confidence in myself. If I wanted something, it was not my physical appearance that would inhibit me from getting it.

Until now… Suddenly I don’t even want to look in the mirror because the reflection is so daunting. I’ve accepted the loss of hair but the lack of movement and extra weight has me feeling a way I’ve never felt before.

I’ve never looked in the mirror and hated so many things.

It isn’t till now that I realize so much of my confidence was in the way I looked. I used to stand up for people and suddenly I have a hard time standing up for myself.

I know the only thing that will help with the reflection in the mirror is time.

This feeling of anger and frustration towards my body will make me a better person. I will never judge someone because of their physical appearance.

Everyone has a story- remember that.



Read more from Anyse at her blog Permanently Pink.

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Anyse Lebeau

Permanently Pink

I’m probably one of the happiest people you’ll ever come across. I love learning but life doesn’t stop for anyone & while pursuing my journalism degree at Carleton I was diagnosed with cancer (may I add for a second time.) Nevertheless I’m still trying to look on the bright side of everything. Positive anything is better than negative nothing.