I’m not gonna lie I’ve always taken good care of myself; hair done, makeup on, cute shoes, tight jeans… I worked out from time to time but not routinely by any means.
My body was always something I admired, most definitely never hated.
I ate as I pleased but made conscious decisions in regards to my food. I made friends easily, had confidence in myself. If I wanted something, it was not my physical appearance that would inhibit me from getting it.
Until now… Suddenly I don’t even want to look in the mirror because the reflection is so daunting. I’ve accepted the loss of hair but the lack of movement and extra weight has me feeling a way I’ve never felt before.
I’ve never looked in the mirror and hated so many things.
It isn’t till now that I realize so much of my confidence was in the way I looked. I used to stand up for people and suddenly I have a hard time standing up for myself.
I know the only thing that will help with the reflection in the mirror is time.
This feeling of anger and frustration towards my body will make me a better person. I will never judge someone because of their physical appearance.
Everyone has a story- remember that.